I once told a friend; “History is repetitive and to know where one stands in the timeline of events, is to know one’s own destiny”. My dear friend could barely understand what in the world i was talking about. Unfortunately, its hard to put these words into perspective for everyone, but i will try to explain these words throughout the body of this post.
First of, let me point out that whenever i write, be it poetry, a blog or a short story, it’s usually based on an emotion I’m feeling in that very moment, however fleeting it may be. Anger, pain, melancholy, sadness or remorse. Sadly i never seem to be able to write when I’m happy. Wether this is a good thing or a bad thing, only time and soon-to-be history will tell.
Today the emotion is that of anger mixed with disappointment, grief and maybe a little bit of melancholy, all because I observed someone use the Scripture as a tool for making someone else feel terrible and worthless. Wether this was done on purpose, out of spite or out of ignorance I cannot tell. But I cant help but notice how something that is meant as a tool for good can so easily over time become a weapon for Evil and ignorance.
Unfortunately, we are a forgetful species, and like hamsters, we’re stuck in the repetitive evils of past generations. Today we fight for freedom of religion, and we cling to the premise that; our founding father’s conquered these lands that we may be free to serve God whichever way we want as free Men. Yet we criticize, chastise and demonize those who do not serve GOD the way we want them to. We seem to have forgotten 2 key facts. The fact that the founding fathers fought for their independence from England to flee 1) a Church that dictated how one must worship GOD and 2) a theocratic government that laid exorbitant taxes on the weak, needy and poor.
We forget that once upon a time under the roman empire, christianity was a capital offense and the early disciples (who by the way were devout jews NOT Apostates) laid their lives not for the founding of a new ‘Religion’, but for the establishment of GOD’s purpose and promises on the face of the earth.
When we speak, we forget history. We forget Greece and Hellenism, Rome and the likes of Nero, Caligula and the imperial cult. We forget the dark ages, the reformation, the black plague and the puritans. The Spanish inquisitions and the cold wars. We forget and make little to no attempt to remember.
Perhaps we are a doomed species. Perhaps it’s the way it is, because this is the way it should be. Maybe ignorance is destined to be our burden! Then again, maybe we are consciously ignorant that evolution may be perfected in our weaknesses and judgement is justified when executed on us. Even then, surely the stench of our ignorance is strong enough to quicken our feeble minds and selfish hearts.
All the same, this is not to say there aren’t a few good men. And maybe, just maybe it’s the few good ones that make it all worthwhile. As the sages say; GOD will allow the world to continue existing as long as there are 36 Tzadikim Nistarim (Righteous People). Yet, it’s hard to sit back and watch an hypocritical and self-absorbed generation relive the ‘sins of the fathers’.
That being said, I’m no judge, neither have I been ordained a judge and this is nothing more than ramblings. Ramblings that I hope leads you to introspection. Ramblings that I hope leads you to break out of a circle of ignorance. Simply because you owe it to yourself and to everyone around you.
I once used to wish i lived in the days of Christ. I tell myself; I would have loved him, walked by his side daily, been his faithful disciple and savored every single word he spoke. But then i realized, I probably wouldn’t have. I would probably be like the many others who thought he was talking absolute balderdash and leading people astray. Then again, maybe i would have been loyal to him. but that’s something i’ll never know. One thing i do however know right now is; Everything happens for a reason and in its season. This is the Only time i could have truly lived and come to life. Hence i exist in the now. It is only now that i would have been able to believe in or not believe in Christ..
A quantum physicist once said; “The Universe is a string of interwoven consciousness, and time and space are nothing more than illusions that can be warped, stretched and altered”. I on the other hand seem to think Life is nothing more that GOD, and our Universe is no more than a dream like illusion. A world that illuminates the darkness of non-existence.
Light, darkness, life, death, love, hate, reality and delusion all exist in our cognitive understanding of Truth and reality. I always say; perception is reality and we are products of our imaginations. But what is Truth and what is Real? is it what we have all collectively come to accept as true and real? or is it what we’ve all been led to believe. Like clay in the hands of a porter, have we been subjected to cognitive manipulation by the porter named ‘Society and Culture’?
If Collectively we see ourselves as one people under one GOD, where is that unity? if we collectively see ourselves as different pieces to the puzzle of life, why has that picture failed to come together? If collectively my own and i all say our GOD is all transcendental and is the same yesterday, today and forever, then why do my own people not believe me when i say; I saw GOD last night? or that i feel what GOD feels? or that GOD speaks to me everyday?
In an aeon full of faith, faithlessness is the order of the day disguised as Religion, culture and perception. Delusion is turned on it heads and fiction is no better than facts. History repeats itself, because we are a forgetful species. We know not where we come from and delude ourselves with the belief that we know where we’re headed. Yet we fail to see what’s in front of our eyes. Blindness is traded for blindness, and vanity for vanity. because we cannot tell the difference. conscious perception is unnecessary because oblivious attention is comfortable.
Then again life isn’t about my perception and my philosophies now is it?